Day 32 of 84

Decisions, Decisions. Choices we make every day affect our life. Should I go right or go left.? Should I hit reply, reply-all, or delete? And many times we decided without thinking about it. It is like we are on autopilot. Spam….delete. Backup on the Beltway…where’s the next exit. Whatever size bag of M&M’s, “oh my, how did I eat the whole bag”? And some choices are thought about long and hard. Hair color, trip to Hawaii, is He the one?
But I am becoming more aware of how often I ate without thinking about what I was putting in my mouth. Without actually tasting what I was consuming. Without enjoying the indulgences I so often indulged in. And that is my current lesson. Concentration on experiencing the flavors of life.
I have addressed the preconceived notion that I HAD to eat everything on my plate. No matter how large that plate might be. No longer will the past habit of not wasting increase my waist. The next lesson is to slow down and actually think about what it is I am eating. Oh, I have much knowledge about the “diet”. This number of veggies be included per day. That much protein should be eaten. And, yes, fat has to be included in the recipe, just the right kind of fat. But it is not just about numbers and portion sizes and calories. Now I have to discipline myself to actually taste what I am putting in my mouth and to concentrate on what it means for the goals I have set.
It is not that I can or can’t have what I am desiring or be seduced to want. (Darn TV commercials.) I am on a course to change my life and lifestyle for the rest of my days on this earth. So, yes, I will be able to enjoy cheese cake or ice cream, eventually. But when I do chose to have “dessert” it will be because I really want it and I will revel in the flavors and textures of what I am eating. And more than anything, I will not eat until I am so full I can’t move just because that first bite tasted so good.